February 28,2010 "I'm guessing this is growing up"

3 songs I'm relating to right now:Turn It Off-Paramore,Coffee Break-FTSK,Practice Makes Perfect-CIWWAF.Those songs definitely say what I feel right now.So hard to believe everything that's happening right now.All the change & pressure.This is the part where everything changes,life,school,friends,family,interests,etc.As usual,as I always say,busy.Just when I think everything's okay,more stuff comes in.No one ever said ever said growing up was easy.Tomorrow's March already.Summer's coming near here in the philippines.4th quarter's going way too fast.Can't believe the 1st year of HS is already over.Crap.February 28,& I haven't even gotten a ticket for Paramore's concert.Might go,if grades will improve.If that's even possible.Some people say I'm intelligent/smart,well truth is I'm NOT.I'm not dumb or stup!d either,just average.But well,I wasted it.Became so interested in other crap,such as technology,alternative music,etc.Sometimes I kinda think that I've disappointed others.They just say that it's okay.How do others even balance,being smart,yet still interested in those stuff I mentioned.I think they're secretly perfect.What the fudge.Sometimes I wish it was sort of back to the old days.New change is kinda scary.

February 13,2010 "I can feel the pressure,it's getting closer now"

I know,it's really been a long time that I haven't been blogging because of school & I'm just clueless on what to blog about.So insane these days.3 weeks ago,had 3rd quarter exams.Failed in science. D: Week after that,4th quarter.So much pressure,seriously.Lots of overload @ school as usual.Yesterday,had a school fair.Sort of interesting.I wanted to go check out the other stuff in there but I was so sleepy.I feel so misunderstood,seriously.Anyways,bad news,found out that we have a HS dance,& us freshman students,have to go. D: I don't want to go 'cause well,I just don't enjoy dancing,dressing up,& all that other stuff.Me & some of my batchmates we're planning to go,but NOT dance.Worst part,we have to dance.I keep saying that I won't come,but classmates keep on saying:"You have to go." Come on,it already bores me out.So many things that others expect @ this point of life.Social life?!I'm fine with just having a few good friends,me staying @ home,etc.I just prefer it that way.Well I guess,this is it for now.